Week 13 2014 22/3 Father is sick . and it gets worse

My Father is sick .. he is 86 and has to go through an operation ..
Mum is still the same . doesn't look good for her either . she is handicapped for the rest of her life.
My Brother is not holding on any more .. he is fed up and he has the right to be.
There is nothing that anybody can do .. everything is going downhill and very tragically so.
He told me (don't need to worry .. nobody lives forever) .. which means really : let everybody go to hell.

There is nothing that anybody can do .. it is a country full of idiots , guided by idiots .. ruled by idiots .
I don't know if I can hold on more .. looks like I am unable to stop my worries . hope that will not turn to a depression. nobody wants that in the moment .
I want to scram . cry and break everything around .. I feel like living a nightmare .. yes .. it is a nightmare but for real.

Just informed that a rocket hit next to my apartment. bad news seem to go on and on.